I wear my heart on my tagline

yes, it is true. rewind with me back to freshman year... sitting at my computer and talking to friends on MSN. It was then that I first started "wearing my heart on my tagline" It began as a joke. Something I accused one of my roommates of doing, but secretly realizing that i do it to. Why? I could guess...and my dear friend sydney who knows me better than i know myself at times could probably guess better.... but that's not the point of this blog. What I want to do is explore my most recent choice in my tagline. I figure this is a step up from wearing my heart on my tagline, although soon i may have to change the saying to ' i wear my heart in my blog'....


"some choices are just out of reach"


So, here I am, standing in front of a vending machine. So many choices in life, what is it that i want? Each choice has a different cost, but with the cost comes a reward. If only we could open the door and have it all! I think we've all had this similar feeling. Wondering what it is we want out of life. How are we supposed to choose from 2 or more "good" things? Why can't we just have it all? But what happens when we get into the predicament that the boy in the picture is in? We finally pick what we want, we put in our money, and for whatever reason .... the chosen prize gets stuck. We are out of change and our choice is just out of reach. What is a person supposed to do?

The picture shows the boy reaching for a heart. And, if you know me at all, you know I can be dramatic, and needy, and love sick etc etc (especially late at night which is when i found this picture... and probably why i liked it so much). However, I would like to expand this concept to more than just the idea of unreachable love. I think the item that is just out of reach could be anything. Recently I've talked to a lot of people who would give just about anything to have some more sunshine and time to play in it. Seeing as I spend most of my days in the library, this shared dream is just out of reach for me. Sure I could quit my job, decide school isn't really important and be able to appreciate the daylight hours and the sun (assuming Utah decided to actually continue the nice weather). but as appealing as that sounds, its not really what I want. As so life goes on. A dream set on hold, an ideal waiting to be reached, and all of this done with the hope that someday it will all work out.

That feeling of hope is an interesting feeling. Some days I feel it strongly, and i KNOW deep down that its true. That eventually everything will work out. But then some days.. some days its not so easy. Stress builds up, country songs put ideas in our heads, and our vision gets clouded. Its days like this that I find myself dreaming and wishing and not feeling any better. What we need to do is learn to appreciate what we have an not get stuck always reaching for something that is just out of reach. And so i end this post with a personal realization that I do know life is great. And i do know that i can be happy with what i have. And i do know that someday, all my dreams will be fulfilled. And until then... i will hold on to this hope that i have. Because its this hope that will keep me from reaching for what is just out of reach.